Alice Notley | Culture of One
adhd culture is rewinding something because you stopped paying attention and missed a bit, then forgetting to pay attention to the bit you missed and having to rewind it again, then forgetting to pay attention to the bit you missed and having to rewind it again, then forget-
“I believe one writes because one has to create a world in which one can live. I could not live in any of the worlds offered to me. The world of my parents, the world of war, the world of politics. I had to create a world of my own, like a climate, a country, an atmosphere in which I could breathe, reign & re-create myself…”
i hate that i’m so absent as a person. i don’t start conversations. i can barely maintain them. i’m so weary and spaced out all the time to the point where i can’t even keep up small talk and i’m just so disappointed in myself
“A desire for a more normal life does not necessarily mean identification with norms, but can be simply this: a desire to escape the exhaustion of having to insist just to exist.”
— Sara Ahmed, Willful Subjects (149)
countervisuality 